Through months of negotiation and discovery of lies and deceit the book covering more than a decade of my life has finally come to a close. It is without regret or remorse I can walk away without sadness or fear.
I can’t believe I’m saying this, but after years of struggling – I am over fear. I’ve been able to move forward, slowly pushing myself to let fear go.
The reward is this time - I’m faced with fresh parchment and a pen filled with new ink. Rested and poised ready to write a new story where the ending is up to me.
Shutting Down
The clock winds down
Union comes to a close
Can't keep anticipation in
Your demons finally exposed
Apprehension begins to subside
Stress replaced by relief
Can't keep significance in
Our connection finally deceased
Shroud relinquishes its grasp
Hunting for new clothes
Can't keep eagerness in
Moving forward finally composed
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ReplyDeleteAlicia,
ReplyDeleteCongratulations! Fear of change can be a major hurdle to overcome, and you've done it. I'm proud of you. Go out there and live life on your terms again (and don't be afraid of NOT being in a relationship for awhile -- you may find that being independent can be quite liberating).
On another note, given your recent battles with fear, and your background in psychology, you may find Naomi Klein's book, "The Shock Doctrine", of interest. You're an engaging writer, and this quality is even more evident in person. Now that you've changed your world, why not change THE world? With your pen and personal charm, you could help open people's eyes to the real problems facing society, and influence a change for the better.
Overcoming all fear is needed to do well but fear is difficult to overcome completley... it is like asending a staircase that goes up and up neverending and you have to climb one step at a time.
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear your new view of fear.